What if things dont go well ?

All about 'God'

This weekend even though I had some machines go down and a deliverable pending, decided to keep the promise of me taking someone to the Pittsburgh Sri Venkateswara Temple. Having done some thought about the trip, it was decided that it would be economically better if I rent a car and go in it rather than use my car and have miles on it. So now that I did have to rent a car why not rent a sports car :D I rent out a Pontiac Grand Prix. Man this car is kick ass. One foot on the accelerator and boom you go to 10o miles an hour (160 Kmph) and you wont even feel the vibrations. I am zoooooming on the road and was around 95 mph when I see this cop car parked right next to the highway. Bam I slam the brakes, the car looses speed momentarily and hits 75mph. The speed limit was 65 mph ! The cops pulls me over and the lights go on for couple of seconds and then he stops the lights ! I said to my self, dude Midhun pick a number between 150 and 300 and take that money out and make a paper airplane and fly it off !

After a minute the cop walks to me and says "Sir, you are lucky. My vision board just went blank. I am not going to continue this pursuit. You just clocked 83 mph." and just walks away ! I sat there in disbelief that my first ticket experience was not to get one. My face is like a mirror of my expressions and I had a big surprise written all over my face. I sat there for about a minute and then went on with driving at 65 mph :( What a waste of a beautiful car. I was not sooo much into sports cars but this car has changed my attitude all together. Marvelous vehicle !! When I look back at what I had done, I felt very excited and nice, but then I wasn't really able to enjoy completely. All along in my head I was thinking of a phone call I should not have made. The first time I made that mistake, I got lucky and felt nice, but this time there was something really strange about it. I felt some strange coldness and I really hated making this call. Well I am not a person to regret about things which have been done. Life is too short to take time off in regretting. I was not able to decide if what ever is happening in life is it for good or is it going in the wrong direction and should I do something to make life better. But then it dawned upon me. The whole concept of god ! Why not leave everything to god ? He is the one who decides what is good and what is not. If at the end you are not happy, you can blame him when you meet him ! The concept of a superior being is such a great thing. I always ask my self do I believe in god. The answer is always yes, I do believe in a supreme being because one cannot control all the things in his life and the acceptance of a supreme being in what ever form gives the peace of mind unparalleled to anything else. Do I fear a supreme being, no ! I dont believe god is bent upon pushing his agenda. He is god for a reason ! If he gets angry for someone not following him, he is not going to react with human emotions of anger and frustration. Well what ever be it, I sometimes forget that a supreme being exists and visits to temples makes me remember whom I forget. Said to my self, enough of thinking now lets leave everything to god and see what happens ! With this I felt very light and then was able to enjoy the cop episode ! Went to the temple and loved the ambiance. I felt the calm atmosphere soo soothing after the heated thoughts which made my head go so hot, someone who likes coffee could have heated a cup off my head.

Outside the temple I see the temple's vehicle. Nice name plate 'Srivaru'.

Came back with a strong speed limit regulator in the passenger seat who got some strong incident to back up her anxiety ! Also I didn't want to try my luck again. God did help me out once even before I went to the temple, now let me not bother him again. I even didn't ask much from him, I felt he would be too busy with the huge list of wishes every one makes. I just said give me some good life ! I come back home and see something real nice. I don't know if that would make a big difference a year from now, but I the fact is that moment I felt really nice. I read something from a person and I loved it ! It was not much, just a small reference and that was good enough to bring a big smile on my face. I don't really know if this person would mean anything to me a year from now or will it be everything ! Who knows ! But I feel I should thank god. Really I didn't ask him anything in this direction but things happened. Also I never had a feeling that there would be someone like the one I met, I am really really glad that I got a chance to meet this person. Let me share some secret, I am not going leave everything to god. I will do something from my side, I am going to hope. Yes hope that things go well :D If they don't I will have a big task at hand ! To find the one of the other six who would be like the one I met :D I would need a lot of gods help here. For now ... Patience !

..little patience, mm yeah, ooh yeah,
Need a little patience, yeah
Just a little patience, yeah
Some more pati... (ence, yeah)
I've been walking these streets at night
Just trying to get it right (Need some patience, yeah)
It's hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like being stuck in a crowd (Could use some patience, yeah)


The words above taken for appropriateness from Guns N Roses' Patience.

Patience : "quiet hope and trust that things will turn out right. You wait without complaining. You are tolerant and accepting of difficulties and mistakes. You picture the end in the beginning and persevere to meet your goals. Patience is a commitment to the future."

Its late now. Looks like great minds have this innate desire to write after 1:30 AM :D I should get some rest else I would have to use some Shenaz Hussains Eye cream to get the darkness I would accrue below my eyes.