Being a 'Good Man'
I have been wanting to post about this but had tough times getting the right words to express it. Now that I am totally pissed and upset in life, I guess the effectiveness in this post is something which is of my least concern now.
I have been thinking for a while about why I always take strive so hard to take the path which is branded the Good Man's path when i have an easier way which would give me lot more benefits and is easy. Why should I be a good brother when all it gives is a responsibility and work for which you cannot get credit may be for ever ? Instead there is a lot of risk being branded selfish ! All just because I am conditioned psychologically to be a so called 'Good brother helps his brother ?' from the bible of Middle Class Morals ? The choice makes it even harder when I have the knowledge of skipping that responsibly or the trouble so very easily and no one would ever know that I did that because I didn't want to. All that I have to do is to tell a simple lie. Now I know for sure I have lied in many cases and I am no 'Satya Harishchanrda' when it comes to telling the truth. I still cant figure out what is it that I am going to get being a 'Good Man' which is soo badly driven into any kid born into the middle class family. I do experience happiness when I do something good, but that is psychological conditioning ! It would take me sometime to get that 'Good Man' lesson out and put the 'Bad Man who acts seamlessly like a Good Man' lesson. But why is it that I dont do that. Why the hell am I so obsessed being good. Couple of days ago I felt so happy and thought may be one benefit of being a 'Good Man' is that good things happen to him, when I met some one. But then I realise that being a 'Good Man' might force you to give up something good that happens to you.
What have I achieved being good. I could have and even now can do things which I cannot, all that I have to do is just jump the line and become the bad man who acts good. Its damn easy and I am very confident I am going to be real good at it. Initially I will have a tough time but then I can cheat myself into it.
I have been thinking for a while about why I always take strive so hard to take the path which is branded the Good Man's path when i have an easier way which would give me lot more benefits and is easy. Why should I be a good brother when all it gives is a responsibility and work for which you cannot get credit may be for ever ? Instead there is a lot of risk being branded selfish ! All just because I am conditioned psychologically to be a so called 'Good brother helps his brother ?' from the bible of Middle Class Morals ? The choice makes it even harder when I have the knowledge of skipping that responsibly or the trouble so very easily and no one would ever know that I did that because I didn't want to. All that I have to do is to tell a simple lie. Now I know for sure I have lied in many cases and I am no 'Satya Harishchanrda' when it comes to telling the truth. I still cant figure out what is it that I am going to get being a 'Good Man' which is soo badly driven into any kid born into the middle class family. I do experience happiness when I do something good, but that is psychological conditioning ! It would take me sometime to get that 'Good Man' lesson out and put the 'Bad Man who acts seamlessly like a Good Man' lesson. But why is it that I dont do that. Why the hell am I so obsessed being good. Couple of days ago I felt so happy and thought may be one benefit of being a 'Good Man' is that good things happen to him, when I met some one. But then I realise that being a 'Good Man' might force you to give up something good that happens to you.
What have I achieved being good. I could have and even now can do things which I cannot, all that I have to do is just jump the line and become the bad man who acts good. Its damn easy and I am very confident I am going to be real good at it. Initially I will have a tough time but then I can cheat myself into it.
